I try not to worry. My smart self knows it solves nothing and that my energy would be better spent doing something constructive. Like exercise. Or prayer. Or meditation. Reaching for a hand to hold or a shoulder to lean on.
My mother has made a career of worrying. So I've seen what it can do. How it can consume you. Sometimes freeze you in your tracks.
So I'd like to think I know better. But not always.
I have my moments. When the inclination to worry won't let go until it is firmly implanted in my psyche and starts getting in my way. At first I don't realize it. But then I catch myself in the mirror and see the crease that is etched in my forehead and that forced smile.
And I know.
My worrying is trying to immobilize me.
This is one of those moments.
I've been trying not to worry about this mess. The optimist in me wanted to believe these people would come to their senses and see their own foolishness. But I was wrong. It just keeps going on.
So I worry.
I worry about the craziness that is our government.
I worry about the things that come out of the mouths of the people who are supposed to be watching out for the rest of us.
I worry that we have forgotten that "we the people" means all the people.
I worry about the example this shutdown is setting for our children.
I worry we are not educating our people and this is the result.
I worry that we are not teaching negotiation.
I worry we are not teaching people how to properly read and interpret documents like the Constitution.
I worry there are too many egotistical men elected to office.
I worry there are too many more concerned with getting their way than doing the right thing.
I worry how ridiculous we look to the rest of the world - who until recently held our model as the highest standard.
I worry that we have put business and making money too far ahead of caring for our citizens.
I worry that health care has become a business more concerned with how much money it makes than health.
I worry elected officials are being paid under the table by extremists and special interest groups to get their way.
I worry that guns are in the hands of the wrong people.
I worry that the Republican Party will fall apart because the sane Republicans are being outspent and outmaneuvered.
I worry about no Republican Party because a two party system is necessary in a democracy.
I worry that the Tea Party are obstructionists.
I worry that too much time is being spent on not funding a law and not enough on the real problems we are facing like education and terrorism and job creation.
I worry not enough people care about this mess.
I worry that John Boehner's face is getting so red he might explode and his replacement might even be worse.
I worry that there is still too much racism in this country.
I worry that I would rather get my news from Jon Stewart because it's less upsetting than anywhere else.
I worry about news channels that have forgotten how to report news.
I worry that this blog is off point today and not at all about demystifying digital or marketing or business or life.
I worry that I might lose a reader or two as a result.
I worry that writing about my worries is not enough to make a difference.
But it's worth a try!
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